i need to write

i need to write. about what, i'm not exactly sure but i just feel that i have to exercise my brain cells and make it work a little bit because it's getting really rusty. i don't know when was the last time that i used my brain to think. like really think, the way i used to when i was still in school. nowadays, i just feel dumb and getting dumber every minute. that thought just makes me feel sad and frustrated.

in all honesty, i can do something to exercise my brain. i could go back to school, study a different language. do something, anything. just to make me feel smart again (not that i'm really that smart to begin with) but i sabotage myself. i am too lazy. i waste all this time doing nothing. sigh.

even now, my laziness is getting the best of me. i still want to write but i'm losing steam here. sigh.

ok, i'm going to stop my ranting now.

p.s. i can't believe this is my first post after over a year of inactivity in my blog. oh sadness.