another week ends

this week passed by past but it really wasn't a good week. mazhar is really getting on my nerves. one of my pretend assistant teachers got suspended. somebody keeps on bugging me, texting me and calling me (feeling may stalker!). hindi naman ako nagfi-feeling pero parang ang awkward lang to be talking to someone i barely know. ewan ko, baka conservative lang ako. hay ewan.

thank god it's friday. seriously, this week was just stressful and draining. now, i can look forward to the weekend. something's gonna happen tomorrow that i'm so looking forward to!! sana masaya talaga toh!

i want to go shopping. just to de-stress. sana lang madami akong pera to spend. hehehehe.

he did it again

he's trying to get me. i swear, he does it on purpose. looking for things that i did wrong just so may pambara siya sa akin when i try to talk to him about my salary. asshole! everyone in the damn school does something wrong but i'm the only one he catches! everytime! aaarrrggghhh!!!!

i am hating my boss right now

my boss is a lying, conniving asshole out to make my life hell. he is so kuripot it's so not funny! i hate him! he says one thing to you and then the next day, he changes his mind and denies he said anything. aarrrggghh! i was suppose to get a raise when i became lead teacher but when i asked him about it he said tha he was going to wait a little while becasue he thinks i should be exhibiting more leadership skills. i don't know what more he wants of me. i've assumed all the responsibilities in my room. ano pang gusto niya?! for me to push around my two assistant teachers?! because i am not doing that. i don't want to boss around people. it's not how you show leadership. tapos when i ask him in what specific ways does he see i am lacking in leadership skills, he can't really give me a straight answer. he just keeps on bringing up my offense of dozing off in the room during nap time one time. okay, i know falling asleep is a big stupid mistake pero naman! there were three other people in the room with me! nothing bad could have happened to my kids that day. and i know it's not an excuse but i was really sleepy because i still had jetlag. paano naman ako agad makaka-adjust to the time when he didn't even give me time to adjust. he made me go to work right away. asshole talaga. he keeps on saying that i could have beenf fired for doing that eh hello kaya noh if he only knew that almost all the teachers in that school were falling asleep right and left eh di lahat kami fired na. i was just the unlucky one who got caught! kainis talaga! anyway, he just keeps on bringing it up all the time. gusto ko na nga sabihin that if he wants to fire me then he should just fire me. i can work for somebody else and i don't even have to pay him a bond kasi i was not the one who broke my contract. and i know naman he's not going to fire me because he needs me in the school, what with most of the teachers there quitting every few weeks (most of them quitting because of my boss). tapos pa when i talked to him he had the gall to tell me that him not giving me a raise was not about the money but my performance as a good teacher to the kids. yeah right. kids, my ass! all he cares about is the money and making himself richer. i mean, he was in puerto rica last week and he can't even give me a dollar raise! it makes me so mad!

take a deep breath....woosaaa.......

all i can say is, karma is a bitch.

this is what happens when you're stuck at the house on a friday night

jalyn is one of the kids in my classroom and she is soooo cute! yun nga lang super aggressive din siya and she bites and pushes everybody unprovoked. pero when she's being nice she's really very sweet and (again) very cute! i love her big hair but i'll never exchange my hair with her. hehehe.

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i never got to watch any LOST episode when i went home last to the philippines kaya i had no idea what the heck was happening in season 3 anymore and i resolved not to watch any episodes of the latest season until may dvd na or may reruns (usually may reruns kasi kapag summer eh). i wanted to watch the whole season from the 1st epi until the last epi para wala ako ma-miss. but no, i couldn't help myself and watched the latest episode last wednesday. and OMG! i don't care that i didn't understand some of the things that were happening. i loved the scene between jack and kate right before jack was about to leave to go back to the outside world! aaaaaaahhhhh! sobrang kinilig ako medyo napasigaw ako mag-isa sa basement namin! wahahahahahaha! when jack told kate "i'm coming back for you..." gusto ko matunaw. sana ako na lang si kate!

i love LOST! i remember watching it the day after it premiered on AXN. it was a friday afternoon and i was getting ready for my college graduation (which i was late for, by the way). pilot episode pa lang sobrang i got hooked already. the plane crashing into the sea. all the people trying to swim to safety. the engines whirring and exploding. kate stitching jack up and jack telling kate about his 5-second thing. i loved it! and kung hindi pa obvious i'm all for jack and kate. i admit sawyer is hot pero jack pa din ako! jack is hot! i want him and kate to end up together kasi i really think they are the one meant to be together. naalala ko na naman yung episode last wednesday when kate told jack not to trust the others and jack told her that he trusted them because kate told him so, when she asked jack to save sawyer. heart-wrenching! i felt sorry for jack.

i know it's kinda freaky that i'm this affected by a tv show but i can't help it. i just get very emotional and involved in things easily. i laugh out loud when i'm reading a funny part in a book. i cry rivers of tears when it comes to the sad parts. i'm very mababaw. i don't know if that's a good or a bad thing.

i need to get a life, i think.

but i still love LOST.

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two posts in a day, i really need to get a life.

i love fridays!

i think everybody loves fridays for the obvious reason that it is the end of another week of work and the beginning of a too-short weekend. today was even better kasi i had a good friday. first, it was really nice out today. finally, spring na! long winter days are over! ngayon na lang ako ulit nakalabas ng walang jacket of any sort. ang sarap! second, considering that i had 9 two-year olds in my room today- it wasn't too bad at all. they were all pretty good today. nobody was being too stubborn, crying, pushing or worse- biting the each other. i actually felt that the day went by pretty quickly. then when i was at the mall buying food, a woman in line behind asked me where i bought my clothes kasi i looked cute daw! oh diba?! na-flatter naman ako dun. hehehehehehe! too bad for her all the clothes i was wearing (except my shoes) today were all proudly made in the Philippines. pero in fairness talaga na-flatter ako dun kasi naka-bayo shirt lang ako, jeans from divi, white flats from payless and a white bag from SM!

the only bad thing that happened to me today is that i lost some money. more accurately, someone took money from me. i don't know who it was but it's somebody from my school. kainis! i'm never bringing my purse in that school again!

pero all in all my day was really good. sana ganito lagi! =)

little miss sunshine

** just a warning, this entry contains spoilers! **

i was finally able to watch little miss sunshine and i loved it! last year ko pa gusto mapanood toh kasi i've been hearing so much about it kaya lang i never had a chance to watch it. thanks to tynee for lending me her dvd!

this movie was great! it was funny. it was sad. it had everything in it. it is such a simple story but it really makes you think about your life and everything else in between. olive was so cute and the dance at the end of the movie was a hoot! but i really loved dwayne! wahahahahahaha! dwayne, the nietszche follower, and his pen and small notebook! panalo si dwayne! especially dun sa parts when he wasn't talking still kasi sobrang effective yung anguish niya when he finally talked when he found out he was color blind and couldn't go to flight school anymore. tapos he seemed so sweet when he didn't want olive to dance anymore kasi she wasn't beauty pageant material. i love dwayne (in a weird unexplainable way)! hehehehehe!

nakakabother lang yung ibang girls na kasama sa little miss sunshine. i was kinda scared of them! they looked so made up! and their bodies were even airbrushed just for them to have tans and sculpted bodies! freaky! (hind naman ako masyadong affected noh?)

but all in all, the movie was great (for the nth time)! everybody should watch it!

you should watch this

i never really cared much about Al Gore or any other US politician for that matter but after watching An Inconvenient Truth, i think i really like him. too bad i'm not an american and i can't vote for him.

the movie really opened up my eyes about the effects of global warming and how serious the problem is. grabe, we are literally going to run out of land to live in when all the ice caps and ice shelf (whatever that is) melt in the north and south pole. it's a scary thought. and there are a lot of other facts mentioned in the movie that were pretty mind-blowing and disturbing. but they were all presented in a way that was interesting and understandable to even the simplest of minds. plus, al gore was a really good speaker. kahit na yung ibang jokes niya medyo hindi ko masakyan and sometimes when the story veers towards gore's personal life medyo cheesy na.

but aside from that, it's a very good movie and it really would make you more aware of what's happening around you.

this week sucks

i am starting to hate my job. well, actually just the room i'm working in right now and my asshole of a boss. i've been back to my work for barely over a month and yet ang dami ko na nagiging problems with my kids' parents and with my boss. sobrang daming "welcoming" gifts sa akin.

incident #1: my classroom actually got reported to the Child Protection Services (CPS) for alleged child abuse! as in the CPS people (which is kind of like the DSWD back in the Philippines) actually came to the school to interview all the teachers who were with me in the room because a parent from my room complained that her child (whose name is Daniel) came home one day with bruises all over his body. ABA! malay ko naman where he got it! i know i never laid a hand on that boy. sobrang crybaby nga yung kid na yun i would even take him with me to my lunch break just so he wouldn't cry anymore. even one parent mistook him from my son! tapos his mom would accuse me (and the two other teachers with me) of hurting him! kainis talaga! good thing that after the CPS people interviewed all of us they couldn't come up with anything we did wrong. all of my other co-teachers basically gave the same answers to their questions. grr! some parents talaga! i was scared that the police might come and take me away to jail or something! kasi it has happened before in the school i'm working at right now. the teacher wasn't actually arrested or antything but the cops came into her room and actually watched her while she was changing diapers and everything! man! buti na lang that didn't happen to me. my co-teachers were already planning what they were going to do if they get fired and i told them what about me?! i have to go back to the Philippines and they all started laughing at me and reassuring me that i won't get fired and that Daniel's mom didn't think i hurt her child because everybody was telling her that i was her son's favorite teacher. but still! feeling ko tuloy i have a record at the CPS saying i'm a potential child abuser or something! aaggghhh! so frustrating!

incident #2: yesterday, i informed one of the kid'd mom that her son (Euphser, unique name noh?) has been pushing this one boy (Irving) in our room lately. as in, Eupsher always pushes him thinking that they're playing kasi he's always smiling and laughing as he is pushing Eupsher. even when we tell Upsher to stop he still thinks that we're joking and just keeps on smiling and pushing. most of the times we have to carry or drag him away from Irving just so he would stop psuhing him. eto pa, Irving is bigger than Eupsher but Irving is scared of Eupsher because he pushes Irving all the time. so, eto na nga yung concern ko and then i tell Eupsher's mom and Eupsher's mom gets all defensive about it and says that Eupsher is just a baby and he is such a charming boy with great personality. i wasn't even saying anything bad about Eupsher! i just told her that he's been pushing Irving a lot lately and i just thought she might want to know, in case it becomes a bigger problem later on, at least she already has an idea since i told her already. i thought naman she was fine with it. and then kanina, Eupsher's grandma suddenly starts saying that Eupsher's momwas so upset about what i said and they felt i was just picking on Eupsher and was talking about how there are too many black people in the world for me to be putting Eupsher down. and i wasn't even there to defend myself! she was trying to make it seem i was being racist pa! grrr! crazy b***h talaga yun! none of the teachers like that grandma because she keeps on coming to the school and just sitting in the room, watching Eupsher as if we're treating him bad or something. anyways, so after what Eupsher's grandma said i got worried na that the mom might have taken it the wrong way. so i apologized to her this afternoon if i offended her or made her upset about my comment. i told her that i just told her about her son just so she'd know what's happening to him. i didn't mean anything bad about it. but i didn't apologize for telling her that Eupsher was pushing everybody because it was the truth and every teacher in the room knew about it.

incident #3: my a**hole boss told me that i wasn't performing as well as they would like as a lead teacher. after he said that i was asking him in what way was i not doing my job right and he couldn't give me a specific reason and just repeated that i need to exhibit more leadership skills. how the hell would i know what to improve when he can't even tell me specifically what i'm doing wrong?! a**hole talaga! i told a co-teacher what he said and my co-teacher said that just so i won't get a good evaluation and not get a raise. grr! kung hindi ko lang talaga siya kailangan for my papers here- parang ayoko na! tiis lang talaga! sigh...

i hope the rest of the week gets better. please God.

guys, sorry for all the curse words. i've just been having a bad 1/2 week.

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on a good note: my mom, Meann and Nate are coming to the US tomorrow! i'm excited!

an embarassing incident

so i was at the mall yesterday, applying for a cellphone line and the guy working at the store was asking me for my personal information and when he commented me about my age, saying that i didn't look like i was 22 already i looked at him strangely and corrected him. i told him i was already 23. he then gave me a strange look back and said that no, i was 22. of course, stupid me, wholeheartedly believing that i was 23 told him to do his math. and then i thought about it and realized that- wow! i was 22 still!

how stupid could i be to forget my age?! i really thought i was 23! i've been telling my co-teachers that i was 23 and i even wrote it in here! when i told the people i worked with what had happened, they all laughed at me and said that i was too young to be forgetting about my age. i don't know what made me think i was 23 already but i really felt stupid. i'm still kind of perplexed how this happened. oh well. that's life.

first entry

i am a nerd. i've always known it but it's only know that i'm starting to realize how much. i'm pretty sure there are more people out there who are "nerdier" (is there such a word??!!) than me but i think i'm really a nerd.

you might be thinking how i suddenly came up to this conclusion. well, i was watching tv today and as i was surfing through channels i came upon this old movie, The Towering Inferno. title pa lang old school na yung movie and it is pretty old kasi it's from 1978 pa. just a background of it, it's basically the story of people who get trapped in a really really tall building after it cathes fire hence the title. Anyways, any normal 23 (almost 24)-year old girl would probably have continued on looking for something to watch but not me. i actually stayed and watched the whole movie- and i was really into it, naiiyak pa ako at some parts. that was proof # 1 of the depth of my nerdiness. the next proof was that i actually knew the actors of the movie (paul newman and steve mcqueen) and i thought they were hot. i mean, these guys are waaay older than i am. heck, they're old enough to be my lolos and i know steve mcqueen is dead already.

i love old things-movies, music, books. heck, even old people (well, old-er guys anyway..paging richard gere...hehehehe). even before, i have always been interested with the past. i love old movies. i love the Beatles. i think they are the greatest band in the whole wide world. i even used to watch their black and white performances on channel 5 when i was 9. i used to love history when i was in school -even now. years before, i would spend my free time reading my mom's old encyclopedias circa 1960s. i won't even pretend to have absorbed all the facts that were in those encyclopedia because i am no promil kid (paging Shaira whatever-her-last-name-is). i just liked reading them because- i'm not really sure. i think part of the appeal was how the encyclopedia looked and smelled. its pages were yellow (because it was so old) and it smelled well, old (because it is old). ang labo ba? i don't know. basta reading those encyclopedias was fun for me. how much of a nerd could i be?

man, parang nakakahiya na toh pero wala eh, that's who i am. that's how i am.

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as i said (wrote) already, i love old movies (kinda obvious with my blog address)- as in even black and white ones. i remember when i was 10 or 11, pinapagalitan pa ako ng dad ko for watching old sampaguita pictures- sampaguita pictures! nerd na nerd talaga. bakit daw ako nagtiyatiyaga manood ng movies that were older than i was. as i got older i just got more interested in old movies. buti na lng may channel 31 dati that showed old american movies kaya i got to know and watch even more movies. i watched audrey hepburn (and fell in love with her!), katherine hepburn (no relation to audrey hepburn), humphrey bogart (i like him pero i could never understand why women wanted him), james stewart and gregory peck (always the nice guys), robert redford (i heart him! i don't care if he's old and wrinkly! if i ever see him kikiligin pa din ako!), barbra streisand (she's great! i don't care if she's a diva. in my opinion, she has every right to be. )- and i absolutely loved them!

i couldn't explain my fascination with those movies then. i still can't explain it now. maybe i'm just an old soul or a romantic. basta all i know is give me an audrey hepburn film anytime and i'll be happy.