first entry

i am a nerd. i've always known it but it's only know that i'm starting to realize how much. i'm pretty sure there are more people out there who are "nerdier" (is there such a word??!!) than me but i think i'm really a nerd.

you might be thinking how i suddenly came up to this conclusion. well, i was watching tv today and as i was surfing through channels i came upon this old movie, The Towering Inferno. title pa lang old school na yung movie and it is pretty old kasi it's from 1978 pa. just a background of it, it's basically the story of people who get trapped in a really really tall building after it cathes fire hence the title. Anyways, any normal 23 (almost 24)-year old girl would probably have continued on looking for something to watch but not me. i actually stayed and watched the whole movie- and i was really into it, naiiyak pa ako at some parts. that was proof # 1 of the depth of my nerdiness. the next proof was that i actually knew the actors of the movie (paul newman and steve mcqueen) and i thought they were hot. i mean, these guys are waaay older than i am. heck, they're old enough to be my lolos and i know steve mcqueen is dead already.

i love old things-movies, music, books. heck, even old people (well, old-er guys anyway..paging richard gere...hehehehe). even before, i have always been interested with the past. i love old movies. i love the Beatles. i think they are the greatest band in the whole wide world. i even used to watch their black and white performances on channel 5 when i was 9. i used to love history when i was in school -even now. years before, i would spend my free time reading my mom's old encyclopedias circa 1960s. i won't even pretend to have absorbed all the facts that were in those encyclopedia because i am no promil kid (paging Shaira whatever-her-last-name-is). i just liked reading them because- i'm not really sure. i think part of the appeal was how the encyclopedia looked and smelled. its pages were yellow (because it was so old) and it smelled well, old (because it is old). ang labo ba? i don't know. basta reading those encyclopedias was fun for me. how much of a nerd could i be?

man, parang nakakahiya na toh pero wala eh, that's who i am. that's how i am.

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as i said (wrote) already, i love old movies (kinda obvious with my blog address)- as in even black and white ones. i remember when i was 10 or 11, pinapagalitan pa ako ng dad ko for watching old sampaguita pictures- sampaguita pictures! nerd na nerd talaga. bakit daw ako nagtiyatiyaga manood ng movies that were older than i was. as i got older i just got more interested in old movies. buti na lng may channel 31 dati that showed old american movies kaya i got to know and watch even more movies. i watched audrey hepburn (and fell in love with her!), katherine hepburn (no relation to audrey hepburn), humphrey bogart (i like him pero i could never understand why women wanted him), james stewart and gregory peck (always the nice guys), robert redford (i heart him! i don't care if he's old and wrinkly! if i ever see him kikiligin pa din ako!), barbra streisand (she's great! i don't care if she's a diva. in my opinion, she has every right to be. )- and i absolutely loved them!

i couldn't explain my fascination with those movies then. i still can't explain it now. maybe i'm just an old soul or a romantic. basta all i know is give me an audrey hepburn film anytime and i'll be happy.